.......I love scotty :( ......... he's to sweet to go to jail

omg man!!

soOo im not allowed to show Jimmy emotions n e more......ha
so ima be an emotionless person........
just imagine me without a face........thats kinda what its like.......

so that kinda sux..............cuz he always wants to know whats wrong........BUT then when i tell him its the WRONG thing to say.........but really........come on if something is wrong u cant expect it to be pleasant...........idk............so now I was just on the phone with Jimmy and I wanted to tell him sommin really bad..........but i hadda act like nothing was buggin me..........so i couldn't tell him i just started laughing and acted as tho i was swell...........WHY IS NOBODY ELSE AWAKE AT 4AM WHEN I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T CARE HOW BAD IT IS!!! stupid boi stupid boi stupid boi stupid boi...................

well needless to say wanna know whats buggin me NOW...beside the fact that I heard the noise that i hear that is SOOOOOOOO PAINFULLY LOUD!! ................

..............................((I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS HOW U MEANT THIS JIMMY BUT......THIS IS HOW I TOOK IT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO))

.......................today at Jimmys house he said "you're a piece of work"........and all of us agreed that...that was his way of saying he cant handle me...and im annoying to him...and that I'm to much for him and basically he cant put up with me right.........thus that made me feel GREEEEEEEAT...............so someone no name said HE was a piece of work for thinking I was a piece of work so that made me chuckle a little i guess.......

THEN

................tonight when I told him what was wrong with me he basically told me he doesn't wanna listen to me talk about whats upsetting me ((right after he told me he wanted me to tell him)) ... and he said I'm just trying to push him away by telling him these things.....BUT HE'S THE ONE WHO ASKS....and I dont know what im spose to do.......am i spose to lie and make up some stupid thing that im not really thinking............like say oh nothing i was just upset cuz bj did this yadda yadda when really its the voices make me wanna shoot myself in the face..........hmm idk what one i should revert to doing right.........

THUS.....
I'm no longer allowed to show emotion..........so after this blog........i'm either NOT gonna blog OR ima be a HAPPY BLOGGER!! no more meaningful blogs...................cuz even if i dont show and tell mi sorrows to him he'll read em so im just gonna blog less or sommin.......

but for mi Karrie and Bj and Rhon I'll still blog on myspace so u can read mi rants........
I'm hoping this solves ur probs Jimmy.....Im not attempting to PUSH U AWAY.

Im just doing what you want ........................ TALK .................. and when i do.......all the sudden I'm doing what you dont want?? how does that work.........I'm sorry...but it just doesn't make sence to me...........

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.:signed emotionless:.

yea was bored..

......oh you wanna know about MY day?!!!!

BANG!!!!!!











SPLAT!!

> I got my hair cut.....kewl it looks decent ...........
>> I chilled wit Bj.....webcam fun...like the old dayz.....it was fun
>>>Went with Rhonda, Shannon, Ory, and Lance to Roulette ...they said i'd be back in like 20mins..
>>>>an hour later everyone leaves and expects ME AND RHONDA TO RIDE WITH DRUNK DRIVERS!!.....I'm not that FUCKING RETARDED....I'm scared of cars already....and riding with someone drunk makes it worse...so they all made me feel like the dumb one for being scared...so i just like walked away crying......finally after 1.5hours of standing outside..rhonda called scotty and a half hour later he came and picked us up to take us home ............ IF PPL JUST KNEW WHY I WAS SCARED I BED THEY WOULD HAVE STOPPED AND THOUGHT ABOUT SOMETHING OTHER THAN THEMSELF FOR A GOD DAMN FUCKING SECOND!! FOR CHRIST SAKE!! I MEAN COME ON PPL!!!!!!!!!!
>>>>>Scott...the entire ride home or a lot of it he talked about car accidents....he tried to GET ME TO WEAR MY SEATBELT!! and then once he realized WHY I WOULDN'T fucking Chrissy wouldn't shut up and STILL TRIED TO FORCE ME TO PUT ON MUH SEATBELT NO FUCKING 13 IS GONNA TELL ME WHAT TO FUCKING DO!! IF SHE DOESN'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT SHE NEEDS TO KEEP HER FUCKING MOUTH SHUT!!! i REFUSE to wear seatbelts and maybe if u guys knew what really RAN THROUGH MY HEAD YOU'D SHUT THE FUCK UP!!
>>>>>>then I get home and call Jimmy to tell him that Scott expects Chrissy to come and that me bj and rhonda couldn't find a ride.....AND HE FUCKING YELLED AT ME!! TO MAKE MY FUCKING NIGHT WORSE..WHEN I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO SOMEONE......I CALL THE PERSON I THINK WILL CARE AND HE FUCKING YELLS AT ME.................
>>>>>>>LAST MY MOTHER DECIDES SHE WANTS ME TO CALL WHEN I GET TO "KARRIES HOUSE" BUT REALLY I WAS GOING TO JIMMYS SO IM JUST GONNA STAY HOME AND BY MY EMO SELF AND LISTEN TO WHAT MY MIND HAS TO SAY TONIGHT CUZ IM NOT DRINKING THE SORROWS AND VOICES AWAY TONIGHT!!

what a fucking day!!!

hair cut

...Rhonda = Einstein!!

*~Rhonda~* - like two peas in a pod...
*~Rhonda~* - ...two bannanas in a split (((i made that one up by myself))

haha shes a tard!! <3

eskimo....

[[me]]"OMG THAT ICECYCLE ALMOST HIT ME IN THE HEAD"


[[bj]] "wheres the Eskimo??"

haha

Tragic Snow Accident

I love love love snow!! haha
Bj, Rhonda, Jimmy and I go sled-riding.....well Bj and I were the only 2still sledding and we see this snow pile.....we decide lets go down and jump the pile.....lets just say we didn't JUMP the pile...haha we more or less flatten half of it and SNAP our sled in half leaving us sled-less and unaccomplished!! haha

Willy and Charlie ha

me Jeff n Bj were watching the New Charlie and the Chocolate Factory movie right and I got SO fucking confusd with the title of the movie!! seriously....

In the movie they were like showing willy wonka as a kid and some old lady was like
"oh it's little willy wonka"

right....

me: "WAIT WAIT WAIT!!.....why is the movie called Chocolate and the Charlie Factory....wait no....Factory and the Charlie Choclate.....wait no...........Willy and the Charlie ........"

Jeff: "KENDRA IT'S CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!

Bj: *giggle*

me: "WELL WHO THE FUCK IS WILLY.........that lady just called him Willy....so what does Charlie have to do with anything....shouldn't it be Willy and the Charlie...i mean Willy in the Chocolate factory.........or maybe that kids name should be Charlie......so seeing how he made the chocolate factory..man im confused......."

Jeff: "KENDRA.....the movie is based on Charlie and he goes to WILLY WONKAS chocolate factory...they aren't saying Charlie MADE the chocolate factory thats why its CharlieANDthe Chocolate Factory!"

Bj: "YEA.............*giggle*.........wut?"

Kendra: "oh.....k"

I gotta take a shit

Three Months

Brea.......it's been 3months since she died :'(
...I miss her A LOT!!
and I'm spose to partee tonight...
and it's not gonna feel right....
I'm gonna cry
and everyone is gonna think I'm dumb
and idk........


Look at that picture.....look hard
look how happy she was :'(

.... RIP Brea....I love you

[[end]]

"I understand you..just in different ways"

My boy lolly-pop...

Last night was bad...
very bad!
I was doin VERY VERY good untill I heard the LOUDEST sound EVER!

followed by a head ache....then "it/they" came??

"it's" name is Roy and "they" have many names I only remember Vick and Cynthia the rest are still but a whisper...

Every time I closed my eyes Roy reminded me "you know what happens when you go to sleep" simply implying that I was gonna die if I went to sleep.....
While in between his words Vick and Cynthia gave me cenarios of how i would die..
....was scary.....then I heard that EAR PEIRCING sound again and it was all
gone ...all the vioces...and all the sounds......

Now today I'm left w/ a massive head ache...

Roy - sounds like the Devil ..... very Deep echoing Satan like voice......
and
Vick and Cynthia are siblings/twins @ that.....and they sound VERY placid...peaceful and angelic yet.....they speak of such hate...........its creapy :'(


................worst part is...they'll be back tonight

Slomming...and Simon Says...

so I dont know if anyone else around here has seen this commercial but I think its REDICULOUS!! for real...

The commercial basically is dumb as hell because we all know we have our retards that are gonna go off and try it because an Anti-Drug commercial said to.

seriously.......since when does sticking leaches on yourself get high..SINCE NEVER....for real when u find a leach that gets you high while sucking your blood pass it this way [[PSYCH!]]...

anyways....this particular commercial (((that I just so happen to be viewing at this very moment....))) shows teens involving in an activity called "Slomming" [[standing for]] "Sticking leaches on myself".......well, what the so say "drug-free" United States Government is ATTEMPTING to say is that...teens are influenced easily and will do just about anything that the crowd is doing.....riiiiight?...wrong we aren't THAT dumb!!

WELL it is understandable WHY they made it...like the point gets across to pot-smokers like myself.......because we know the pot-smoker life unlike non smokers.....BUT some posers OR non smokers MAY indeed think this activity, "SLOMMING", is real and SOME may indeed feel the need to try it....commercials like these are what influence kids to do shit if u ask me... the constant accnolegement of Weeds existance just makes us want it more....

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ANOTHER commercial!! this one is on the Radio tho....Karrie was talking about this the other day and I came home today and ACTUALLY HEARD IT when everyone left it was so funny!

SO IT SAYS....

"Simon says, Smoke another bowl"

"Simon says, Fail another class"

"Simon says, lay on you're back with your hands on your head"

"Simon says, smoke 3more bowls"

"Be you're own Simon, live above the influence yadda yadda yadda"

yea..............so by the time I smoked the 4th bowl I'd forget I was even playing Simon says!!
Jeff, Karrie, Bj and I agreed on that today....lol but seriously these commercials inspire teens to smoke pot!!


[[live above the influence]] .................I AM MY INFLUENCE




[[end]]

omg!! what a night!! LMAO!!

We buy product 30mins b4carry hadda go hom.....lol okey we just hadda be fast

6bowls later....its 5mins AFTER her mom was spose to be there!
we continued to smoke right after the last one cashed Karries mom came lol

one bowl later.....Jeff, Bj and I sit here and the COPS DRIVE BY..
omg scared!

so yea I didn't react to n e of it cuz im to blitzed and yea haha but i was SO scared lol ((I think)) idk


<3 Kendra <3

my cats dying *tear*

.....yea

last night was actually decent.
Christa did indeed show up...but it wasn't [[HELL]]
it was more or less....weird but w/e no problems!!!

Scotty and Anthony showed up later on....
we all drank....and yea.
I puked SO much

.....had my emo moments as always
[[emotional drunk]]
.......but other than that it was fun...lots of funnie things heh..
got mi ear pierced yea that was fun too

*Destruction of Gov't Property*

w/e


So this morning kinda sucked but w/e I dont care right now.....
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something must be wrong here.....

^_*

Americans are like retarded Seals :D << lmao

so that is the only hair cut i found that I like idk -->







**random** ... haha ~~Mr. Sherry says : "no the cock cums later" :)) hahah

1test down!! ---- so Gov't test was a piece of cake :D yay!!

<3

OMFG!! so my day went from bad ((my computer is broken))
to worse ...((I'm a bad gf))
to HELL...... ((I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME!! MYSELF!! AND I!!))

soOo how about...hahaha omfg

Yesterday Rhonda, Bj, Jeff and I were chillin [[faded]] ............... sat sitting in front Bj's computer...
and we watched Midget Porn!! how weird is that hahaha??

it was soOo funnie lmao!!! ((speaking of midgets...theres some midget on the tv now O_O haha))

In Pharmacy, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic name. for example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen. The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful consideration by a team of government experts, it recently annoynced that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin. Also considered were Mycoxafalin, Mydixadrumpin, My dixarizin, Dixafix and of course Ibepoken

smot poking convo!! lmao

((Jimmy on the phone with Eddie))
yadda yadda yadda bla bla bla
oh you got that pic for me?

bj: omg what guys exchange pictures??
Kendra: hahaha idk its like they are
both of us : FAGGOTS!!
**laughs hahaha**

bj: maybe they are naked pics


((Jimmy -- oh you got ur pics developed ))

Kendra: OMG IT'S LIKE PORN!!
bj: HAHAHAHAH OMGGG

((jimmy -- oh's and yea's .... okay Eddie...oh's yea's yadda yadda))

Kendra: OMG ITS PHONE SEX!!!
Bj: YEA THATS WHY HE IS SAYING OH AND YEA

((Jimmy -- okay man I'll catch you later))

Kendra: CATCH YOU LATER OMG THATS SO FUNNIE
bj: dooood they are talking about their BALLLLLZ!!
Kendra: what??

bj: get it *catch you later* .... GRABBING BALLS...
both of us: *fake cough*

HAHAHAHHAHA

<3

sure I know I'm only 17 years old...but tell me why this world is so damn cold, Part of me is missin..Nobody will listen.......Doin lots of drugs & gettin high in the kitchen...

bleedinon the inside, cryin on the out....forced to think hell is a place called home--nothin else to do but get muh clothes and pack....said I'm gonna run away and NEVER come back

Black with red sculls?? omg thats soOo hawt!!!


<3 hahaha

so......this is wrong..

It told me hear it.......and look for it.......and when i went out....

I saw it and I heard it.....and its....




....in here..





........................................following me........watching me..............its with me.....

me: mom im gonna be a vegetarian again...will you support my ways?
mom: you know you cant have sex if your a vegetarian?
me: huh?
mom: they call the males part the "meat" right.?
me: yea....ur dumb
mom: well if u wanna be a vIRGINtarian sure I'll help you
*laugh hah*

BREA<3

so...getting drunk right.....Rhonda takes a picca and Brea was so with us lookie!! RIP BABII i love ya!!!